I ruffled a few feathers last week with my post about being willing to be the friend who initiates more with others than they seem to reciprocate. Several of us feel like we're making more time for our friendships than others are... So first a hearty thank you to all of you left comments and shared your feelings! My answer was in response to a girl asking how to build relationships when it seemed others didn't make the time. But for many of you, you expressed that for you this isn't a strategy issue but rather one that actually hurts your feelings and leaves you feeling insecure.
Therefore, I want to jump off from that post to talk about the danger of taking the actions of others personally.
In my upcoming book Frientimacy I share amazing research about how painful it is for any of us to think we're being rejected. It's a very real feeling and it hurts. I totally understand why we all feel so fearful about being seen as wanting a friendship more than someone else, or worrying about whether this is their way of saying "I don't want to be your friend." But if we take the busy-ness of others as a personal offense then we'll not only stay lonely for a long time, but we'll be miserable and sad, too.
Their Actions Hurt Our Feelings
In my first marriage I cried myself to sleep a number of nights. At the time I was convinced those hurt feelings were his fault. I was in graduate school and had to be in class by 7 am so our needs would clash when he wanted to stay up late watching some new show called The Daily Show instead of come to bed with me. (Ha! Little did I know how much I'd come to love that show year later!) I held an ideal image in my head that couples go to bed at the same time. I wanted to talk and cuddle and connect with him. To make a long story short-- despite my invitations, my tears, and my begging-- I occasionally went to bed alone. And when I did... my heart would break.
To many others this story might not sound so bad. He certainly wasn't an awful person for wanting to stay up and laugh. But I had gotten it in my head that he was choosing that over me. In other words, I believed a narrative that whispered: "If he really loved me, he would see how important this is to me and come to bed with me."
We do this all the time in all our relationships, even our friendships:
- If she really understood me then she'd know not to ask that question...
- If she really trusted me then she'd have told me about that problem...
- If she really appreciated me then she'd have done more to say thanks...
- If she really valued me then she'd remember my birthday...
- If she really cared about me then she'd have offered to help me...
And the one that hits a little closer to home from the last post:
- If she really liked me then she'd initiate us getting together more often...
Our feelings are hurt and it makes sense that we'd be tempted to look for who is causing that pain. When we see them doing something we don't want, or not doing something we do want, then we're quick to assume they are to blame for our hurt feelings, insecurities, or anger.
It's Not About Us
But here's the truth, that's easier to see when it's someone else's narrative (hence why I shared from my marriage) and not our own: how other people act says more about them than it does about us.
And what it says about them isn't the bad that we often assume it is.
Take my ex-husband for example. I valued going to bed together early. Nothing inherently wrong with that desire, but neither is it better than his needs and desires. Perhaps he valued decompressing after a long day, perhaps his life was draining and it needed more laughter, perhaps he needed more freedom, autonomy and independence in life, or perhaps his body cycle was just different from mine and he wasn't tired yet? All of those are just as valid as my need.
And here's what I know to my core now that I have experience more growth and maturity since those fights long ago: I don't believe for a second that he ever stayed up thinking to himself: "I hope she knows now that I don't love her." I absolutely know that was never the message he was trying to send.
Yet, I cried in bed, suffering, worrying, and shrinking because of the meaning I assigned to his actions.
Many a woman goes to bed before her partner and isn't crying and hurting over it. I chose my suffering because of what I chose to think about someone else's actions.
In the best-selling book The Four Agreements, author Don Miguel Ruiz teaches that the Second Agreement, if we want to live lives full of joy and peace, is "Don't Take Anything Personally." He says,
"Personal importance, or taking things personally, is the maximum expression of selfishness because we make the assumption that everything is about 'me'."
In the case of a friend not calling, inviting, and reaching out-- it would be easy to take it personally: she doesn't like me; or to blame and devalue her: "I don't need friends like that-- I deserve better!" Our ego is convinced it either means she doesn't think we're good enough or that we don't think she's good enough. But one way or another: someone is bad.
But no friendship will ever blossom with that fear and frustration. The best chances we have for creating the love around us that we want is to keep putting out love and ensuring that our actions are in alignment with that desire. We want to keep inviting and stay as warm as possible.
The Caveats
So am I saying be a stalker? No. :) If she is rude, ignores your invitations completely, has never once said yes, or just acts miserable when we're together-- then, you're right: move on. (It's still not about you though!)
But recognize that our tendency to assume others are trying to reject us is just our own made-up story. Most women out there want more meaning relationships in their lives and you can help show the how that's done-- most of them will thank you for it someday. (And in the meantime you get what you wanted: more time with friends!)
- It's okay to keep inviting if she sometimes says yes and answers our invitation-- it doesn't need to be 50/50.
- We can't expect a new-ish friend to make the same kind of time for us that she might if we were close friends. We can keep building the relationship slowly and trust the growth.
- If you've been friends for a while and she's not as responsive as she used to be, check in with her and see how she's doing... (she may be feeling hurt too!)... it's not stalking to keep trying to engage with those who we are in relationship with.
- If you're trying to start friendships-- put out a net instead of a fishing line! Don't zero in on one person, but stay open to developing several friendships at once.
We're the ones well aware of how important friendship is to our life... for us to keep reaching out doesn't help them as much as it helps us. We aren't doing them this amazing favor as much as we are gifting ourselves with the likelihood that with our efforts we will keep developing the intimacy and love with others that we crave. It is a mutual relationship if we enjoy being with them when they say yes.
I'd rather error on the side of having reached out one too many times than to have stopped one time too few? If I can not take it personally then I can go down swinging for love and friendship.
Does that make sense, in general? I know it's easy to try to find the exception... but overall can you see that it's better to put love out there than to keep track of scores, and better to assume the best of others than take it personally? I'm not saying it's easy but I think it's worth practicing!
I’ve been binge-reading your blog and very happy I discovered it. I think what you are saying mostly makes a lot of sense, but I’m struggling with something: It is so very hard to meet people who are open to new friendships. On the rare instances that I find people who seem like they are, it’s almost impossible to find people who have the *time* to get together regularly. It’s hard to move friends down the pipeline, so to speak. Everyone seems just so very busy. I can’t find anyone to say yes regularly enough to build meaningful friendships. Heck, it’s hard to get anyone to say yes at all. What do you suggest in situations like these?
Dearest Willing to Make the Time:
First, kudos to you and your awareness, intention, and willingness to foster friendships! It's awesome and it WILL serve your life. I promise! Guard that commitment-- don't let others who are less aware steal it; don't let anyone saying no rob you of it; and certainly don't let apathy drain it from you. What you know to be true: that friendships are worth the time, will benefit YOUR life. Regardless of the outcome or of anyone's responses-- you know the truth and it will bless you. Stay with it.
In fact it's your super power! Not everyone knows they have it. You're lucky you do. SO many women are lonely (and the busier she is often means the lonelier she can feel!) and they don't have the energy, know-how, or motivation to change it-- but you do! The ability to initiate repeatedly is a super power that will ensure you build meaningful friendships.
What Won't Work
Let's just be clear that what you secretly hope for isn't going to work:
Ideas to Try for Building Friendships with Busy People
Instead of hand picking a couple of people and casually asking them to do something "sometime" and then hoping that *poof* a friendship will develop from that-- what we need to do is try everything and anything that will help us connect with as many women so we can eventually see who is responding with their occasional yes:
Do you see the patterns in those ideas? Initiation With Many + Repeat As Often As Possible, with a Sprinkle of Fun and Lightheartedness = You Soon Having Friends.